Good Morning- Jamie here!
Have you ever been in a "creative funk" (for lack of a better phrase)? Who has two thumbs and just experienced her first? This girl! Right here! What a strange place to be. I seriously hadn't completed a Bible page in the month of March, up until Monday. For me, something wasn't connecting or "clicking"- I can't explain it better than that. I was in a dry place and questioning where I fit into God's plan. That was until I had lunch with a new friend.
We met at bible study this year and she is someone I was
instantly drawn to by her sheer abundance of faith and how she lives her
life on that alone. This is the first time we have connected outside of our weekly Bible study and sadly, this was a going away lunch, as she is making an unexpected move to Texas. We came to lunch both armed with books, her book worn and well loved, mine brand spankin' new. Both of these books were to be gifts to one another- completely unplanned. The beautifully worn book she was gifting to me was a devotional that had helped her through the decision to follow God and his plan for her in Texas. As we spoke over lunch, I talked to her about this funk I was in and shared that recently, I had been mailed a stamp set from Korin and was finally feeling inspired. I also shared with her that I was worried about a post I made expressing my excitement about the new stamps and how it may have been against the rules in the group where I posted. (If you've read my last post
you will know that I suffer from depression and anxiety- along with
this comes a pretty low self esteem and I tend to beat myself up if I
make mistakes.) I am beating myself up at this point as I am explaining to my friend that I would never intentionally post something to "promote" it. I simply was excited to have some some new inspiration. I also told her that the pages I do are how God speaks through me- I would never want it to be anything other than that. Our conversation went in a few other directions from there and we never really circled back to this discussion. We said our good-byes and assured one another we will indeed be friends for life.
I returned home from lunch and immediately opened the devotional she had given me, on the inside cover was a note from her, and one sentence in that note made my heart sing: "Your incredible gift in art will be a far reaching ministry God will use to touch many." How could she have possibly known this was something I desperately needed to hear? Or that our conversation at lunch would have gone in that direction? I turn to the first devotional in the book and it speaks to what seems small in our own world- where visions are big but our reality isn't. How we really need to look and see what is hidden in the smallness. Recognizing that this smallness is a gift and in it, is a wisdom you cannot receive any other way. What seems small in our world can have a bigger impact- if the acts are done in humility. James 3:13 "Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom ."
Light bulb moment!!! Here is my inspiration!!! My little post, that I was stressing over- was in fact that, little! This isn't about me. This isn't about stamps. This isn't about Facebook posts, Instagram posts or blog posts. This is about GOD! This is about my walk with him. This is about finding myself in him and HIS plan for me. The little pages I do may speak to someone and help them connect with our Lord in a way they may not have otherwise. That is the BIG picture in all of this. I know my intentions, I know what I do and why I do it. I know that this is HIS plan for me- not mine. If I can touch one person on this big journey- fantastic! More importantly though, is how God is touching my life and that I'm living it the way he intends. The rest is all icing on the cake!
I've said this before; I am humbled and honored to be a member of of this Creative Worship team. In this humility I have found a new wisdom- for that I am forever thankful. This page was humbly created with "Note This" by Rebecca Rios designs.
Supplies I used: Note This- Creative Worship Stamps Neocolor II, Gelly Roll Pens, Faber-Castell PITT artist pen White, Wink of Stella Brush Clear, Uniball Signo Gel pen White